whosaysthat ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- feeling self-indulgent okay, so i'm lonely. so here i am. it still trips me out to see the familiar layout of this website. like nothing has changed at all in this little world. how much have i changed after all these years? not much, i think.. not in any way that would matter here. still spending time alone, confused, wondering, worrying, hoping.. wishing i wasn't. and i can list off the things i've done in the real world.. a check list of different lives i've tried.. retail worker, college commuter, university student, drop-out, one night stand, girlfriend, fiance, wife.. different lives i eventually decided to reject. but now i'm left with just me, employed, licensed stylist, single woman, starting over once again.. picking up the pieces, holding it together, trying to picture a new future while blocking out visions of the one i thought i would have. ever hopeful... which sometimes i think is the worst part. and just like that, i feel better... 9:54 p.m. - 2013-06-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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