whosaysthat ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- inhale deeply, relax completely. i love you, diary(land). you are probably the one thing in my life that has remained truly consistent even the smallest glimpses of happiness give me hope. as long as i keep getting these reminders, i think i will do ok. i'm practicing a life of connection. it's hard work. i believe that if i am capable of feeling despair as deeply as i have, i am capable of feeling the same kind of joy. that's what i'm seeking. why i'm breathing. have you ever had a dead friend visit you in a dream? i haven't seen blaine in one in a while, but andrew came last night, as he does from time to time. i woke up with him as well and carried him through the first bit of morning with me. i can still feel him, or the sensation of remembering him. in my chest. right behind my eyes. waiting to be released. it feels good to hang on, and then release. anyway mom has breast cancer and i feel less and less connected with dad. nevertheless the future is hopeful. inhale deeply, relax completely. 9:54 p.m. - 2017-02-20 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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